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I NEED TO GET THIS OFF MY CHEST
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I NEED TO GET THIS OFF MY CHEST I got a Dear Jane letter yesterday. It's the female version of a Dear John letter. I really didn't see this coming. We were not boyfriend and girlfriend but we were seeing each other a lot and I thought we were headed that way. I didn't see it coming(I know I have said this earlier but I can't stand to be CAUGHT OFF GUARD) and it hurt me so bad and I don't know why. I am assuming while he was seeing me he was still hunting for his "soul mate" and he found her on another non sex site(You know the one the with all the tv ads). I was hurt at first but now I am so mad I can spit. I have tried to change the way I look at things even though this is a sex site it don't always have to be about sex. Even though we have slept together we have not had sex. I think if you can do that you are headed to a meaningful relationship. I guess I was wrong. But i think if i had made love to him he still would have dumped me. Was it the age difference? I don't know and I was a bit older than him. Was it my race? No we have been out and he seemed happy and he was the perfect gentleman. I am so mad and confused I don't know what to say or do. I was just with him over the weekend, why didn't he tell me then. Be a man if you have someone else tell me to my face he didn't have to write a letter I would have just said thank you for the ride and walked away. I know my self esteem is at an all time low now but I am really so sick of this site, the men are players and all the men that talk to me are over seas, what good is that going to do me. Maybe it's just me, I am not meant to be in a relationship or a sexual relationship. One guy told me if you don't swallow men don't want you, one told me if you don't do oral sex to a man they don't want you. I GIVE UP!!!. Maybe interracial dating is taboo..................for me. I want to think I am just a regular woman with a great sense of humor, a warm smile and a good heart. Well my heart has taken it's last hit. I can't do this anymore. I have been on this site for 13 years mostly under this name and when I was younger I had fun but the older I get the more I see it's senseless to wonder why men don't see me as the same person I was in my 30's as I am in my 50's.Please forgive me I just needed to vent. I know there are some women that do the same thing to men but men handle it a lot better and I applaud the ones that are true gentlemen and just tell the woman face to face how you feel and what you expect. Give the woman an outlet so if it's not in her agenda give her the right to get out with grace and humility.Once the tears stop I will be OK but for now my heart is broken and I just want to blame all men but I know some of you are OK. I am not a slut, I am not going to be a just to please a man. I am a woman, I am a lady but I hurt like every one else and today I am hurt. |
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Thanks I am an old bitter woman..............or so I was told today........by a man no less
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I will say bitterness isnt what troubles you . Your never to old or wise to be caught off gaurd or suprised or hurt. What I will say is this and I speaking from experience and I do know what I say is easier said than done. Give yourself some time to grieve then move forward. 2nd.Let them show you who they are not tell you. I know havibng faith to trust isnt easy but for me I let people show me who they truely are. and yep im gonna read most of your blogs and add a comment on a couple more than likely. SOme you may agree with others you probably will not but you will see regaurdless I am myself and most even though they maynot agree understand if not they ask me..
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thanks my friend. That is another reason I am celibate by choice. I am not going to get all into a man and he leaves for his true "soul mate". i was pissed but I go over it after talking to a few friend on here and found out I wasn't the only one he had done that to
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